NEVER did I ever think that he would turn out to be the complete asshole that he has turned into. It severely pisses me off that he doesn’t have anything to do with his children. They have not seen their father in a year and a half now. And he had the audacity to tell his first shirt it’s because I wont let him see the boys. That is the biggest crock of shit that I have ever heard. I have tried everything to get him to see the boys and he has made every excuse not to see them. How can you NOT want anything to do with your children? And now I am having to speak with his first shirt on a regular basis because the bastard wont pay child support. And then he gets pissed at me for speaking to his first shirt telling me not to harrass him. I wouldn’t have to talk to him if that two bit son of a bitch would do what he is supposed to do in the first fucking place. And I’m not going to sit there and let him shirk his responsibilities as far as the children go. I didn’t ask for a god damned thing save he support his children. I was entitled to the seperation pay he recieved for me after we seperated and I am entitled to alimony but I don’t even want it. Is it too much to ask for for him to take care of his kids?

And I can’t really rant about it out loud because the boys may hear it and I wont let them know how much I hate their father. It isn’t my job to make him out to be an ass in their eyes. He’s doing that quite well on his own.

I just want to get a mallot and beat the shit out of him and the bitch he married the day we divorced. (Fucking tacky I know) At least with my boyfriend, I make sure he puts his children before me and tell him to go and spend time with them even though I don’t have to because he does it on his own.

I’m fucking pissed.